Tomorrow have a busy day-am being given a tour around the national autistic day centre,it's Morrisons day for shopping,need to get a pair of gloves from the trafford centre [they only sell them in claires and they were out of stock of them in stretford],and am doing a bit more packing-doing a little each day of the stuff that isn't visable and used,have been told move in date is tuesday next week and am going to be given two-one staff until staff have been properly inducted with am [then it's back to one-one].
The other man who will be living in the part with am has said he doesn't want pets in the house.
Not putting up with that after being told was going to be able to have a cat.
He doesn't hate them,doesn't have an allergy and have now been told by someone who used to work with him HE used to have pets in the house,how unfair is that?
Manager has said have to wait for a while first before speaking to him again about it,fuck that, going to get Rach. involved-the cat will not be anywhere near him as he's in his bedroom most of the day.
Am need a cat for so many reasons,and the fact she is making am wait,means am going to have to wait near two years for the breeder to have any more kittens.
Mum has said am should just move back home and get a kit there but that would mean losing everything had gained,becoming reliant on mum,never getting out the house,having to cope with her alcoholism every day,definitely not.
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Wednesday, 28 November 2007
Sunday, 18 November 2007
Cat..........oh and some house related stuff as well
Have got a new residential home place at last,and one of the ladies who know and was going to be in the bungalow is living there already.
It's a community within a community sort of thing,again but not institutional...again like first home.
It's a very big house and is split into several sections,am will be living with a man with downs,he is very quiet,and the lady am know already will be moving in opposite-here's the thing-THEY HAVE SAID AM ALLOWED A CAT,suddenly made the rest unimportant,it should have been beautiful Fluffybum coming with am,but death got him and took him away.
As soon as got back from visiting the place,was looking up breeders straight away,not just any breeders-breeder of Maine Coons and Ragdolls.
Was not far from one Maine Coon breeder/cattery,and in fact had been sitting on the pavement every day outside the house next to the breeders' house,stroking their neighbours' huge one eyed tabby boy cat,without realising there were maine coons next door-it's only on the next street.
Have emailed them to find out about when they are next planning a litter for.
Back to the house stuff.....it's in Urmston near the town centre,which means being far from family home again but don't care if it means am able to live in the house without having to wear eardefenders and earplugs constantly.
Any ideas for Maine Coon kitten names will be welcomed-boy or girl [doesn't matter which am get].
It's a community within a community sort of thing,again but not institutional...again like first home.
It's a very big house and is split into several sections,am will be living with a man with downs,he is very quiet,and the lady am know already will be moving in opposite-here's the thing-THEY HAVE SAID AM ALLOWED A CAT,suddenly made the rest unimportant,it should have been beautiful Fluffybum coming with am,but death got him and took him away.
As soon as got back from visiting the place,was looking up breeders straight away,not just any breeders-breeder of Maine Coons and Ragdolls.
Was not far from one Maine Coon breeder/cattery,and in fact had been sitting on the pavement every day outside the house next to the breeders' house,stroking their neighbours' huge one eyed tabby boy cat,without realising there were maine coons next door-it's only on the next street.
Have emailed them to find out about when they are next planning a litter for.
Back to the house stuff.....it's in Urmston near the town centre,which means being far from family home again but don't care if it means am able to live in the house without having to wear eardefenders and earplugs constantly.
Any ideas for Maine Coon kitten names will be welcomed-boy or girl [doesn't matter which am get].
Tuesday, 13 November 2007
Better future ahead
Have finally won a "battle" with the managers to get a lock put on the shower/toilet room door as they took it off for the other ladies' sake when they could just have used the key to unlock it if she ever locked herself in on purpose.
At a recent review meeting,both managers were there including the crap one,autism speech therapist was there [will never see him again now as he has moved jobs to Bolton council],social worker was there,key worker was there, and sister and dad were there.
speech therapist and rach [sister] refused to let the managers get away with not putting lock back on the door which should never have been removed because there was no need for it as it had a key to unlock on the other side and it has resulted in long term severe constipation,severe toilet phobia and kidney infections-not bothered about people who come in but it's about being disturbed,am not even able to use the toilet anywhere else anymore if there are people walking about outside it,because of this.
it's great about the lock but the crap manager only agreed to it because both social worker and speech therapist were there,and Rach to [Rach will not let her get away with allowing these problems to happen],she agreed to it immediately in front of them,and wondered why she agreed then but never before-even Rach asked about it when got home.
They mentioned that the bungalow with the two other ladies was going to be too much of a high risk in terms of danger,so they have said they are considering giving am a place in a home in Urmston even though they were giving the room to someone else they said they can do that depending on who needs it the most.
am know some of the staff who used to work there and they have got an old tortie cat called Smudge who lives there so am hoping this means will be able to get a cat [rather than a chinchilla],it would be the best thing ever-would like to get a maine coon or ragdoll cat.
They have also said they have edited guidelines am have,to add more "physical intervention" techniques aka restraining [they have to be reviewed by the team pysch. first and okayed by self],and that all the staff are getting more autism training.
The crap manager also said because am can be violent to staff they need more training on avoiding this-asked them where did they get the idea am violent with staff,they said certain things am do can come across as looking violent to staff and that is why the staff assumed am being violent with them.
still don't agree with that,as wasn't trying to be violent in any form,but at least it means they're getting more training which will mean more understanding.
Well,today,shittiest day so far,but for some reason,haven't had one nasty thought....yet.
It started off with the door being fixed,had to go and sit outside whilst they did all that,but as soon as got outside,the man next door sets his lawnmower off.
it sent am into a meltdown,but the staff who was with am took am to the usual hiding spot and sat down till recovered,it wasn't a bad one,and came around to the sounds of "meow"-Justin and his friend [have never found out his name but he lives with him] were both sat around body like bouncers,they take care of am because they get it back off am,went back in,and had to go to shopping mall with staff to get weekly money out,found out have had some backpay totalling-a lot of money in account-that is what staff said,am hoping they did not read it wrong and that it is true,will be able to get the cats even better presents this christmas.
Had to go to the post office,and we went in,it wasn't very busy with people but along came a lady with a screaming toddler in a buggy,am was trapped in the middle because it has barriers on both sides,people behind and there was this quite fat lady in front,the noise was agonising and had fucked up vision to the point of almost disappearing,was trying to get out and when in that state don't know what is there and also am very drunk like-physically,staff tried to stop am from barging into anything and guided am but the quite fat lady got bumped into and she shouted at am,as am was speed wobbling out the door,am was non verbal and wouldn't have been able to apologise anyway.
Got Mcdonalds for dinner,and shopping from Tescos.
In the taxi on the way back,the driver [it was a black cab taxi] turned on music,and am was in agony [was wearing ear defenders as well],staff kept asking him if he could turn it off and exactly why,he refused and am ended up going into meltdown.
When back on bed and recovered,that bitch that lives here came home from college and was screaming non stop,apparently she was like this at college and they sent her home cause they don't tolerate her attention seeking and she doesn't usually do it there as she's obsessed with college and the staff.
she set am off on another meltdown,and despite the best efforts to block her out by wearing earplugs and eardefenders ontop it was too much and left the room,her attention seeking and shouting regulary gives bad thoughts [before forcing better thoughts ontop of them],so am had another meltdown on the landing,and when just coming out of that one she tried screaming again,am ran down the stairs without even realising the stairs were there,and ran at her,letting her experience a little of what am experience when she shouts-but physically,until staff were able to get in front of her and others restrain am.
The Managers were called,and the nicer one came out,she came and stood with am for a bit,and held hand,was lying on bed extremely tired from the whole days' worth of meltdowns,she never had a go at am for fighting with what like to call her-the ABFH [aspie bitch from hell],
everyone thought she deserved it because she was trying to provoke it.
Most days now,wish SHE died and not am,family want am out of there as soon as possible because they actually think am so strong would end up killing her and they do not like her either for what she has done to am,but they don't want am to be in trouble with the police.
Staff were very supportive tonight about it,apologised with signing to staff who had got in the way in case had hurt them or not-they said it was okay,no harm.
Had some opiates tonight [for the side effects and MD induced migraine] to help with coping better,and went outside and brought Justin and his friend over to the wall to give them their favourite treat-fresh prawns.
At a recent review meeting,both managers were there including the crap one,autism speech therapist was there [will never see him again now as he has moved jobs to Bolton council],social worker was there,key worker was there, and sister and dad were there.
speech therapist and rach [sister] refused to let the managers get away with not putting lock back on the door which should never have been removed because there was no need for it as it had a key to unlock on the other side and it has resulted in long term severe constipation,severe toilet phobia and kidney infections-not bothered about people who come in but it's about being disturbed,am not even able to use the toilet anywhere else anymore if there are people walking about outside it,because of this.
it's great about the lock but the crap manager only agreed to it because both social worker and speech therapist were there,and Rach to [Rach will not let her get away with allowing these problems to happen],she agreed to it immediately in front of them,and wondered why she agreed then but never before-even Rach asked about it when got home.
They mentioned that the bungalow with the two other ladies was going to be too much of a high risk in terms of danger,so they have said they are considering giving am a place in a home in Urmston even though they were giving the room to someone else they said they can do that depending on who needs it the most.
am know some of the staff who used to work there and they have got an old tortie cat called Smudge who lives there so am hoping this means will be able to get a cat [rather than a chinchilla],it would be the best thing ever-would like to get a maine coon or ragdoll cat.
They have also said they have edited guidelines am have,to add more "physical intervention" techniques aka restraining [they have to be reviewed by the team pysch. first and okayed by self],and that all the staff are getting more autism training.
The crap manager also said because am can be violent to staff they need more training on avoiding this-asked them where did they get the idea am violent with staff,they said certain things am do can come across as looking violent to staff and that is why the staff assumed am being violent with them.
still don't agree with that,as wasn't trying to be violent in any form,but at least it means they're getting more training which will mean more understanding.
Well,today,shittiest day so far,but for some reason,haven't had one nasty thought....yet.
It started off with the door being fixed,had to go and sit outside whilst they did all that,but as soon as got outside,the man next door sets his lawnmower off.
it sent am into a meltdown,but the staff who was with am took am to the usual hiding spot and sat down till recovered,it wasn't a bad one,and came around to the sounds of "meow"-Justin and his friend [have never found out his name but he lives with him] were both sat around body like bouncers,they take care of am because they get it back off am,went back in,and had to go to shopping mall with staff to get weekly money out,found out have had some backpay totalling-a lot of money in account-that is what staff said,am hoping they did not read it wrong and that it is true,will be able to get the cats even better presents this christmas.
Had to go to the post office,and we went in,it wasn't very busy with people but along came a lady with a screaming toddler in a buggy,am was trapped in the middle because it has barriers on both sides,people behind and there was this quite fat lady in front,the noise was agonising and had fucked up vision to the point of almost disappearing,was trying to get out and when in that state don't know what is there and also am very drunk like-physically,staff tried to stop am from barging into anything and guided am but the quite fat lady got bumped into and she shouted at am,as am was speed wobbling out the door,am was non verbal and wouldn't have been able to apologise anyway.
Got Mcdonalds for dinner,and shopping from Tescos.
In the taxi on the way back,the driver [it was a black cab taxi] turned on music,and am was in agony [was wearing ear defenders as well],staff kept asking him if he could turn it off and exactly why,he refused and am ended up going into meltdown.
When back on bed and recovered,that bitch that lives here came home from college and was screaming non stop,apparently she was like this at college and they sent her home cause they don't tolerate her attention seeking and she doesn't usually do it there as she's obsessed with college and the staff.
she set am off on another meltdown,and despite the best efforts to block her out by wearing earplugs and eardefenders ontop it was too much and left the room,her attention seeking and shouting regulary gives bad thoughts [before forcing better thoughts ontop of them],so am had another meltdown on the landing,and when just coming out of that one she tried screaming again,am ran down the stairs without even realising the stairs were there,and ran at her,letting her experience a little of what am experience when she shouts-but physically,until staff were able to get in front of her and others restrain am.
The Managers were called,and the nicer one came out,she came and stood with am for a bit,and held hand,was lying on bed extremely tired from the whole days' worth of meltdowns,she never had a go at am for fighting with what like to call her-the ABFH [aspie bitch from hell],
everyone thought she deserved it because she was trying to provoke it.
Most days now,wish SHE died and not am,family want am out of there as soon as possible because they actually think am so strong would end up killing her and they do not like her either for what she has done to am,but they don't want am to be in trouble with the police.
Staff were very supportive tonight about it,apologised with signing to staff who had got in the way in case had hurt them or not-they said it was okay,no harm.
Had some opiates tonight [for the side effects and MD induced migraine] to help with coping better,and went outside and brought Justin and his friend over to the wall to give them their favourite treat-fresh prawns.
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