new home

have been at the new placement since the twenty second of january, and its great to be finaly somewhere that isnt a fucking prison.

a week after being released in december,was detained again after an almighty battle with the police, was in absolute fear of going back into that learning disability hospital,thankfuly was given a load of PRN halperidol and zopiclone as it was about ten o clock at night when had finaly stopped fighting and was flopped under everyone on the floor.
luckily did not lose placement,and they changed the things that needed changing,and gave a lot more time to get used to the transitions and new routines.

well am now nearly a week out of hospital and feeling so much better for it.
am not on a section three anymore either,they finaly removed that when was discharged-am on a section 117 aftercare but acording to the advocate of mine they have no legal right to detain under this section,its just a duty of care thing they have to put in place.

am not allowed to have anymore incidents whilst living here,as the police have had meetings with social services and said will need to go back to secure residential care and not live in the community anymore if they are called out again to deal with self.
residential care honestly sucks,and am fed up with it,it is so limiting in having anything that resembles a life,just being able to think about going to a local shop and doing it or going for a walk [or a roll in KoRs case] is a rare luxury,money is a distant dream as are not alowed to have more than twenty five pound a week under the UK law if are living in residential care.

am determined to make it work,thanks to getting out of residential care and having money am now an athlete for the special olympics club;wirral chapter,doing equestrianism.
am also a fully fledged member of staff for the NHS,working as a interviewer for two social services learning disability teams;trafford and CWP,and am part of an LD advocacy group PLUS helping to put together learning disability awareness week at the hospital that started the NHS,a interest of mine because have been treated so badly in that place due to being LD and autistic.

have also got the internet but that shoud be obvious if am writing this,am on a 'three network' dongle thingy that plugs into the laptop and allows internet access anywhere,its got a gig of bandwith/data allowed but have added a firefox addon that blocks all images and have turned off any software that automaticaly updates to avoid running out of data, because am undergoing a new power of attorney and it takes a while to get it sorted am unable to get a proper internet connection sorted out until thats done.

right now,am suffering terribly from a cold,its gone to lungs and am struggling a lot to breathe,its three am now and am due in work tomorow,cant let them down.
am not allowed to take over the counter cough/cold syrup because am in care,so have to wait to tomorow to go to the doctors to ask for his permission,what a fucking joke.

institutionalised....again

it feels like years since have written a post on here but its only been months.

unfortunately back in september was having a crisis due to having had a past filled with abuse and a tough year with hospitalised crohns disease crisis and the beloved chickens of mine being kidnapped plus the mental health destroying online bullying had suffered from an infamous now thankfuly banned member of wrong planet amongst many other disability related sites he forged lives on.
-it all ended with several rooms being trashed,a head smashing through a double glazed window and ten police officers struggling to restrain.
was in both handcuffs and full length leg restraints.
-ended up sectioned first in a awful high security mental health ward where despite having full time one to one support had become targeted and bullied by a woman with borderline personality disorder [though another woman who will never forget was like a mother and was protected by her in there].

then was moved to a far away LD assessment and treatment hospital when a place became available.
with all respect to the staff that understand [many of them dont and have had incidents with many of them as a result of their treatment],it has been absolute hell in a lot of ways,am on level three observation which means being watched by a nurse full time including whilst on the toilet,have also hated the total lack of understanding of sound sensitivity in there whilst they have nothing but sympathy for patients that are hard of hearing,this got to the point where an advocate had to get involved and also the LD team am under to educate them on acute sensitive hearing and hyperacusis.

have gained some friends whilst living there and am keeping in contact with them and with one friend we are going to be meeting up when we manage to find a suitable riding school and am out of the prison hospital.

unfortunately due to the residential home saying they cant cope anymore [BS because theres people with more challenging behavior living there] and was made homeless,they turned their backs when was in need of them.
a placement came up in a brand new build,its a big centre all on one level but only for four women who have autism with both LD and mental health needs.
its secure supported living and four flats in each corner,each one with a private garden and the rest of the building is communal.
it has a sensory garden and will have a sensory room eventualy.

its also in an area am very familiar with having gone there to horse ride as a child.

am now on a section three [which means theyre allowed to detain for up to six months] and next tuesday am due to move into the new place though there wont be any internet until that gets sorted.
unfortunately we had a new resident come in last week who brings up her disability as an excuse every time she attacks a patient or staff and she shouts from morning till night and is both verbaly and physicaly abusive-its been making life hell on the unit for everyone,so had begged the LD team and the new organisation am going into to sort out a overnight placement on monday because that was the day was due to move to the new place-and within a moment they had sorted out a placement in another unit of theirs which has twenty four internet access,a gym,a pool table and all sorts of other stuff-am chuffed to bits!

at this new place am also allowed to have cats so finaly have got wish after all these years to live in a place that allows pets indoors.

an autism endorsed cat lovers thread

cats are probably the most celebrated thing besides trains by autistic people,and being one of those crazy cat ladies have taken it upon self to make a list of the best famous kittehs incase anyone hasnt come across them yet.

all of these are favourites of mine,and have got them liked/on the facebook news feed to keep updated on them,unfortunately scarlett was PTS having developed cancer from carcinogens in a now banned cat food a while ago though but her incredible legacy still goes on.

have fun 'liking' them all on facebook!


scarlett; the heroic cat who got badly burned whilst saving her kittens one by one from a burning building;
https://www.facebook.com/ScarlettTheHeroCat?fref=ts

chase;no face, a cat that had his face skin ripped off as a kitten in a car accident,and that now works as an advocat in disability
https://www.facebook.com/ChaseNoFace

colonel meow:
http://www.colonel-meow.com/

justin;fire survivor,a cat that got set on fire by a scumbag of a humanbeing
https://www.facebook.com/justinfiresurvivor?ref=profile

lil bub,a cat that looks photoshopped due to their unusual looks but is actualy disabled
https://www.facebook.com/iamlilbub?ref=profile

corky,a cat that suffers with a unusual severe physical disability
https://www.facebook.com/CorkyTheCradleCat?ref=profile

grumpy cat:
http://www.grumpycats.com/

hamilton; the hipster cat
http://www.hamiltonthehipstercat.bigcartel.com/

spangles; the cross eyed cat
https://www.facebook.com/spangles09?ref=ts&fref=ts

anakin;a cat born without a pelvis or rear legs
https://www.facebook.com/AnakinTheTwoLeggedCat?ref=profile

shorty; a cat with dwarfism
https://www.facebook.com/ShortyandKodi?fref=ts

the little kitty that coud, a cat that was born blind and has a severe physical disability in her rear legs
https://www.facebook.com/TheLittleKittyThatCould?fref=ts

sam has eye brows
https://www.facebook.com/Samhaseyebrows?ref=profile

the barriers to getting support for hearing voices

am hoping to start going along to the support group run by the hearing voices network to hear about others who have issues with voices because its difficult to cope with people who keep saying am imagining it/telling em they arent there,but have come across a pretty disablist snag already before even getting there.

because am 'two to one' aka have two support staff when out in the community,the HVN groups are saying it woud be wrong for support staff to attend in the room for confidentiality reasons,however they have to be around self at all times,we are meeting to discuss this issue to see if it can be worked around tomorow.
this is why we need a group especialy for disabled people who woudnt think twice about someone attending with carers.

chicken therapy

believe it or not,but it exists,and am not talking about mine.

recently,had began going out for walks [or rolls in ems case] with staffs localy,and had come across a huge garden next to a house full of chickens free ranging.
one day had walked past,heard baby chick noises and echolalicaly began repeating them back not realising the sound was doing...suddenly many,many chicks came running over the hill with two hens closely followed behind them it looked like a war time battle,its the first time had ever seen chicks free ranging.

being the chicken obsessed sort,and thinking these were abandoned/not looked after [we are in a bit of a shit tip of a village after all] had started bringing along some posh chicken pellets of mine to feed them and had soon built up a relationship with them,was even been followed around by a ginger little chuck [everyone says she might think we are related,being ginger an all,lol].
then,one day; a lady said not to give them the pellets because they were already on a balanced diet...she realised am chicken crazy given was treating her birds better than anyone and was wearing a t shirt with a cockerel on and a special needs adult bib made out of chicken fabric- she got talking to staff about what exactly she does,she realised which residential home was from without staff having to mention a word,and without further delay she mentioned the project she runs.
-CHICKEN THERAPY.
well bird therapy to be exact,-for disabled people,its not just chickens she keeps,all sorts of exotics to.

she asked if woud like to come down for therapy-was flapping and sqwarking more than those hens.
staff also asked if em was allowed to come and help her with cleaning them,and she agreed to it once we get all the formal stuff out the way.
how amazing is that? was only saying last week that why has no one invented a chicken therapy service,every autistic who thinks cats are the best therapy shoud try chickens to.
the photos arent great but here are some taken of the chucks on a staffs phone-