hangin out with a lost friend

have been friends with a chav for a while,she did have a nice side but she was somewhat pyschopathic and has a habit of just abandoning her kids, have been wondering for a while where she has gotten to.

she was always friendly,always came out to greet us before going back to bed whilst the kids were up to no good outside.

well anyway,we found out where she had got to today,thanks to the detective work of dad.

here is location:

she was found directly on the underside of the platform where biscuits fluffy fanny is positioned.

dad said she is hibernating.have posted photos of her on the blog before,heres a photo of her from today:

 she did always come out to greet us but she was a total pyschopath with ladybirds and flies-she tortured them.

more PECS/images for use

these ones are own/home made.
there arent to many at the moment as most of mine are to exact to personal needs to matter to someone else but have been trying to upload all the ones that may be useful for other people.
as have said,have been trying,but mediafire for some reason is messing about and keeps saying file not found with quite a few images,have reedited them and saved them under different file extensions and compression sizes but that doesnt matter,if it doesnt sort it self out will stick em on the imageshack account.
or upload them here even.

start here:
*click*

huge PECS pack for use or editing

was given these so long ago had forgotten about them.

am not really suited to black and white PECS especialy ones with thicker lines as find it very difficult to make any sense of what looking at,but there are some coloured ones in the pack,they arent very useful to self also because of the thick lines but they might be useful to someone else.

they can be used for communicating with,for schedules or timelines etc-but may want to use a graphics program like GIMP from http://www.gimp.org to properly edit them to own size requirements and text [as theres no text with them so are free to put own if want it].

the link to download it is here:
http://www.mediafire.com/file/qe0k9mq63t12mg2/images.zip

had put them all in a .zip file as there are many folders and pictures-but do not know of any free file hoster that uploads folders,woud be here all day doing one picture after another,the zipping has slightly compressed it to,am not usualy a user of zipping so didnt know the best settings but yeah...the file is there for anyone who wants it,please dont claim those as own though if are going to be distributing them even if edited.

for the malware paranoid,have scanned it with 'no virus thanks' and did not tick the 'do not distribute sample' ,report available here:
*click here*

if are still paranoid after that then have a look in the zip in sandboxie first.

someone else is back on the road

this little madam:

is very very naughty,she will get away with it though because she looks to damn cute.
not only is she being fed at the farm by staff,by self and by other service users as others are fond of her to and like to feed her,but...she is sneaking into the farms cottage to steal the [dog] food from under the resident jack russels noses,and that isnt enough,oh no.

she is disappearing for a few days before coming back to the farm,lounging around and stuffing herself before disappearing again for a few days and so on.
we found out she had started to invite herself into a neighbours cottage just down the road for food,and they thought she was a stray so have continued to make her even more of a pampered pussy.
it has gotten her stuck in a routine with disappearing which is the bad thing,its probably because it appeals to her home comforts side,whilst her farming side is dealt with at the farm.
only just found out all this today.
dont know if she is going to have to be kept in for few weeks again to make the farm her territory like we did when she first moved in,will have to see what others say is best.
need to get her some spot on worming stuff,make sure it isnt worms that keep her looking skinny whilst stuffing herself silly but there is a person am very familiar with who can do exactly the same,she stuffs herself with mcdonalds,kfcs and all of that shit and she is very skinny,asked her once if she had worms as that is what woud happen and she didnt like it,so yeah she didnt have worms,she just orders a diet coke with her mc meals ha ha ha ha,sorry if are reading this.

back on the road finaly

was at the farm today,which marks the start to an end to feeling shit at being stuck in the house.
well yesterday actualy was the first day but whatever.
had never posted it here but a while ago,for one reason or another was put on a high risk assessment in the minibus which meant had to change seats with another resident to be able to go out,as our cheapass council does not fund individual support for people in residential care to get outside-regardless of whether are able to go with the group or not.

the change was not going to happen,not because was being fussy or wanting own way,but had always-and still do sit in the same seat in every transport used including own car,its a solid lifelong routine and it wasnt like change is for someone without autism,it is profoundly painful,plus not to mention now a new placement with same people is being looked into,so what good woud be going through all that only to move?

just saying...if had been willing to go through the long term pain of slowly swapping to the opposite side [still in the back row in the minibus] ,woud have to do exactly the same thing with every single transport in use-thats a lot of cars,and a very long time worth of going crazy and pain.
but not only that,am risk assessed against sitting behind drivers anyway so woud not be allowed to swap seats in any transport apart from the mini bus so officialy it cant happen.

instead,they have just moved the other resident to a different seat instead as they dont have issues with changing seats,wish that had happened in the first place but its over and done with.


so yesterday was the first day back out as a group,and it was to horse riding.
was not able to ride as need to get back into a routine again,but it was great seeing jasmine,was instantly recognised by her and given a hug and a hand lick-something she usualy doesnt do-usualy she bites and nudges with her head.

had a starbucks on the way back which was very nice as never get to have them anymore due to money.


and today,as part of the group again,we went to our farm,of course thanks to having money from not doing riding had been allowed to get another starbucks.


everyone else had gone to make bake some weird fruit cake thing in the school room whilst self and horse phobic SALT went off to stroke horses and kittehs.
she got loads of awesome photos,including several of her fingernails close up which revealed were quite clean so any nose picking must have been wiped away earlier.
heres the photos.

 -a tiny dab of caramel/cream on the nose starts her lip curling.

 -the shyest pony getting her usual kiss and hugs.

 -dublin,a super chilled out ex show jumper.

 lotties tongue and lips locking onto the cream target [came off the starbucks].

 -wanting more of the stuff when was using it to get her to pose.

 lotties famous elvis impression.

 -she is so addicted to cream she cant wait for it to land and tried to drag hand to her quicker.

-lottie facing desperate times- begging like a dog for her fix.

college at home

about to become a student again thanks to the owner of the organisation am living under and ex key worker.


have been doing ASDANs towards independance for a long time as we are taught it at home-
http://www.asdan.org.uk/Award_Programmes/Towards_Independence
but have just been offered the chance to learn proper photography with a professional photographer whom already know,we woud be going to places and building portfolios of work which is cool.
will be doing it with a friend/another resident.
we will be using proper digital SLR cameras,not panasonic digital camcorders with a shitty low pixel photograph function like one that coud mention sat in the bedroom right now.

it had been looked into but college courses for photography are all aimed at people who can access mainstream education and are not adaptable for people like self and other resident,the colleges themselves are not suitable unless are physicaly disabled,and no doubt woud probably end up kicked out again like last time had tried a mainstream college-was expelled from a course that is only for people with learning disability despite having two to one support.
so called 'special' colleges are shit as the funding for them stops when get to age twenty five,the national autistic society had tried to apply on behalf for a placement at a....*sighs* 'special' college called bridge college some years back just for students with autism w/learning disability,but had been told woud have been to old for the courses by the time they finished.

the government are a waste of space for those of us with autism and learning disability who require specialist education,they expect us to have either caught up with everyone else at twenty five,and if not we are lovingly offered the funding for a day centre-most of these for people with learning disability and/or autism are to put it one way...fucking mind numbing with no routine,its no wonder so many people end up being very challenging in them as they are itching with boredom.
the only one have ever liked was a national autistic society day centre,as it is charity based so gets a lot more funding put into it than the government day centres,it had a routine,it had an incredible sensory room,ended up losing the funding for it due to being transfered full time to another autistic organisation for residential.

will have to see about getting dad signed up with the photography,he has had a proper decent olympus E-410 for years and still cant work the zoom so he he uses his manual zoom instead-thats walking up to whatever it is he wants a picture of and usualy being so close its blurry,the photos look like he must have had one leg shorter than the other cause the pictures are wonky,and he temperarily blinds poor orla every week cause he cant work out how to turn the bloody flash off.
 there was one christmas it started snowing very heavy and there was a lot of it on the ground,and biscuit had gone outside to play,and even though had never used it before- had grabbed his camera as he was still snoring away and mum was saying to wait till he gets up to do it,but itd be nightime by the time he stops faffing about,so like that,had messed about with it to turn his flash off and worked his zoom and got some very snazzy photos.....of biscuit shitting in the middle of the garden next to the washing line because it was totaly white and confused her where the borders were,then rushing in because she didnt like the feel of snow dropping on her fur.



heres some of his photos with biscuit and goldie as models,which was taken some day this week,they have been having new flooring and carpets and furniture put in and had sent photos of it so woud be able to get used to the change before coming tomorow.